Lost and Found

Losing grace is
Like losing your

You can’t smile
Your food doesn’t
Taste right

It’s like stepping
In dog shit while
Eating an ice cream
Cone on a Sunday

Losing your grace
Is like losing your
House keys or your
Balance on the reunion
Dance floor

If politics makes you
Lose your grace, give
Up politics

If jealousy makes you
Lose your grace, let
That jealousy go…go…go

If the ball game makes
You lose your grace, kiss
The ballgame goodbye

If religion makes you lose
Your grace, give up

If your maleness makes
You lose your grace, give
Up maleness

If feminism makes you
Lose your grace, show
It the door

If country music or
Opera makes you lose
Your grace, change the

If magazines make you
Lose your grace, give up

If hip hop makes you
Lose your grace, give
Up hip hop

If ketchup makes you
Lose your grace, switch
To mustard

If baldness makes you
Lose your grace, grow
Some hair

If your eyes make you
Lose your grace, keep
Them open

And don’t stop

(C) 2017 Tony Robles.

A Different Kind of Cold up in here

That’s what the

Older black man said

As we sat together


Everything was

Cold, even our



Another black man

Stood and snored

Sleeping while on his

Feet, walking a tight wire

Of a dream


There were others

Who snored and moaned

Waiting on a cold bench


It’s a different kind

Of cold up in



An old white

Man moaned with

A bad hip


The cops beat me,

A 64 year old man,

The man said


Were you drinking?
another man asked


“I don’t remember”


And everybody



And we sat

In our orange



And the air in our

Lungs was cold


And there we were

Attempting to warm



Man, I just turned

31 years old, a guy

Said while holding a

Bag of chopped carrots

That came with the plastic

Lunch sack


Happy birthday, another

Guy answered, now, maybe

You can use those carrots to

Make yourself a carrot



And I looked at

The guy, dressed in

Head to toe orange

Looking like a six foot

Two inch carrot


And I sat

On that cold



2 flies

Buzzing over

My head


It’s a different

Kind of cold


Up in



© 2017 Tony Robles

At the Movies

On Market Street there

Was a theater where you

Could see 4 or 5 movies

For a buck


They were the same

Movie you could catch in

The afternoons on the TV

During a program called

Dialing for dollars


And during intermission

There’d be a raffle

Of some kind


My father went to

That show when he

Was a kid


He’d say that with a

Quarter you could do

A lot of damage back



You could see a movie,

Get a coke, popcorn,

Hot dogs, an ice cream

And juju fruits


I saw a few movies

With my father and I

Got popcorn, if I was



He once told me,

Go get me some

Bomb bombs


I went to the counter

And asked for

Bomb bombs


The woman at the

Concession stand said,

We don’t have bomb

Bombs, we have “bon-



I paid and brought

Them to my father


On the screen, the cowboys

Were shooting the Indians

As my father opened the

Bomb bombs


The woman said they were

Bon-bons, not bomb bombs

I said


My father looked at me

As the gunfire rang out

Across the movie screen


“I knew that” he said,

Gingerly placing a bon-bon

Into his awaiting mouth


We sat through the

Cowboy movie and the

Raffle and waited for

The war picture to begin



© 2017 Tony Robles


Water Protector

My old man had
This thing
About water

He’d put his
Nose near my
Armpit and inhale

Man, you need
To get your hygiene
Together, he’d say

Get some soap
And get your
Ass in the shower

And I’d get in the
Shower and 30 seconds
Or later there’d be a
Bang on the door

Don’t stay in there
All goddamn day,
My father would yell

All day? I’d ask

He explained it

1. wet yourself down
2. turn the water off
3. soap down
4. rinse (but not too long)
5. Get your ass out of the shower
6. Don’t take all goddamn day

It was his way, I suppose
Of protecting the water

And in the years since
I have heard the sound
Of leaking pipes

Escaped tears

Looking for

Looking to
Water the earth
That covers our

And the seeds
Hidden inside

And these days
My father calls me
On the cell phone
And says:

Hey man, you heard
About those brothers
And sisters in North

The man’s trying to
Run a pipeline
Through native land

It’s a cold motherfucking
Shot, from water canons
And rubber bullets

But you got
To protect the
Water, son
He says

His words
Falling like

From a

© 2016 Tony Robles

R & B 101

It was the same stupid argument all over again–Isaac and Ernie sitting down at their usual meeting place—Wong’s coffee shop drinking the usual blend.  Wong’s was an institution on Market Street near Powell, having been there 30 years.  The clientele were mostly senior citizens who came in for a cheap breakfast—eggs, bacon and coffee for 1.99.   Wong’s didn’t have fancy coffee—they only had three blends to choose from—weak, weaker and weakest.  Isaac and Ernie liked Wong’s, not for the coffee, but for the music.  The owner had placed speakers on the ceiling and played the local soul station.  It was there that Isaac and Ernie would get into their stupid argument.

“Man…the Isley Brothers sang Twist and Shout better than the Beatles.  There’s no comparison”, Isaac would say, taking a righteous sip of righteously weak coffee.

“Well” said Ernie, “I wouldn’t say the Beatles’ version was necessarily inferior to the Isley Brothers, only different…that’s all”.

“Man, quit bullshittin’.  You can’t compare the voice of John Lennon to the voice of Ronald Isley.  Just listen to both versions…John Lennon is copying the Isley Brothers version note for note.

Both men sipped their coffee.  Ernie ordered toast.

“Exuse me, you got any grape jelly?” Ernie asked.

“Yeah…I’ll bring it”, said Wong, wearing a white short order cook’s hat.

“Here you go…”


They had given him strawberry jelly in those square plastic containers—they always gave him strawberry and he’d have to ask for grape…again.  He didn’t mind—it was just one of those things.

“You take it too seriously”, said Ernie, spreading on the jelly.  “I’m not even a Beatles fan…I’m just trying to be objective about it…that’s all.

The 2 talked as workers passed by–some stopping in for a donut or a bagel; some in suits and ties walking in, some carrying their dry cleaning sealed in cellophane.  They seemed tired and zombie -like—as though they didn’t want to go to whatever destination that lay ahead.  Isaac and Ernie loved the music that filled Wong’s but the folks that came in didn’t seem to hear it.  For Ernie and Isaac it brought back memories.

“Hey, remember…”
They often sat reminiscing about their group, about their dreams to one day sing and record albums—dreams that swirled and rose again and again.

“You know”, Isaac said, “We could have been a good group…we had harmonies and we had some cold lyrics, my man…”

They had started a group 20 years ago…maybe 25 years ago, they didn’t know exactly.  They called themselves “The African-American Express”.  Isaac and Ernie co-wrote a song called “Ghetto Oasis”.


I’ve been so

Many places


Run so

Many races


But there’s no

Place I’d rather be


Than at the

Ghetto Oasis


The group played small clubs in San Francisco.  They were ahead of their time, calling themselves African-American before it became fashionable.  The group was made up of relatives and old high school friends.  They based their sound on the group called the Dramatics.  Frankie would hit the high-notes the way Ron Banks did.  Ron Banks was to the Dramatics what Eddie Kendricks was to the Temptations.  They were hooked when they heard the Dramatics song, “In the Rain”.  Soon after they formed the “African-American Express”, they were contacted by lawyers for the American Express credit card company.  They were told to drop their name—that it sounded too similar to “American Express” credit cards.
“We ain’t trying to sell credit cards” Isaac protested, “We’re trying to make music”.

The name “African-American Express” was homage to Curtis Mayfield, who had penned the song “People Get Ready” with his group The Impressions.

“…The greatest song ever written…” Isaac would say.

Tragedy soon hit the group.  The lead singer suddenly died.  Billy Swan lay dead in an alley near Fillmore Street, shot in the back of the head—his body injected with car battery acid.  The killer was never found but it was said that Billy had huge gambling debts and was supposedly having an affair with the wife of a policeman.  The group was never the same—Billy was irreplaceable.

“He had a voice like David Ruffin”, said Frankie, swirling his coffee.

“Damn straight” replied Isaac, rubbing his eyes.

The two had been so involved in their usual conversation that they didn’t notice that the radio wasn’t turned on.

“Hey Wong…can you cut the radio on…my man?”

Wong was busy spreading cream cheese on a Bagel but he nodded, knowing what was needed.  The radio, it seemed, was magic.  Every time he turned it on, a special song seemed to be on the air—a song that would spur on another topic of conversation.

A man walked in, an elderly Chinese man.

“One coffee please”

Wong poured coffee into the small Styrofoam cup.

“There you go”, said Wong, taking a dollar from the man.

“I heard you might be closing soon”, said the man, pouring sugar into the cup.

“Maybe…” said Wong”.  “Developers want to buy this building and the building next door.  They want to build a shopping center…”

The man poured cream in his coffee and sat down.

Isaac and Ernie nodded at the man.

“Hey pops…how you doin’ this morning?”

The man waved and sat down at to his coffee.

“Hey Wong…can you hit the radio?” asked Isaac again.

“Oh…I’m sorry”, said Wong, reaching up and flipping the switch.

A voice came over the speakers…

“Good morning…it’s 10:00 straight up on R&B 101…San Francisco’s new R&B station with your boy Poppa Ganda…This is new music from “Too Sly Foo…on R&B 101”

“What the hell is this…?” asked Isaac.

“It’s Too Sly Foo”, said Frankie.


They drank their coffee but the music didn’t sound the same.
“Hey Wong, you got it on the wrong station…”

“I never change the station” Wong replied.  “I’ve had it on the same station for the last 10 years…”

“Where’s James Brown, The Temps, Otis Redding, Aretha…?  Where’s…?

Wong didn’t answer.  He was busy wiping the counter top.

Isaac and Frankie listened to “Too Sly Foo”.  It was a vocal group, the drums sounded mechanical and they sang in harmony.


Bump it up

Girl, grind

It hard


I’ll jump in

Your stuff

When i get

It up


“That’s the thing about today’s music”, said Isaac.  “Where are the lyrics…?”

“Come on now…”, said Frankie.  “When we was makin’music, we was saying shake that thang and all that.  What’s the difference?”

“The difference is that we had a little more class.  We didn’t get too nasty about it, you know.  There was artistry to it.  You know brother, we was all singing about fucking, but we didn’t come out and say it.  Nowadays they put it out there like a piece of meat on a platter.  Remember when the Sherilles sang, “Will you still love me tomorrow?”  They was talking about fucking too but they did it with clever writing.  These days they come right out and say…you wanna fuck?”

“Well, we’re living in a different day and age”, said Frankie, drinking last drop of coffee.

Another song came over the radio, followed by another one.

“You know something man” said Isaac, “All these songs sound the same.  They’re singing the same way”.

“What do you mean?” asked Frankie.

“What I mean is that their inflection, their passion sounds forced.  They’re singing about love and hurt and heartache but I can’t feel what they’re saying.

“Are you saying that all the singers sound the same…?  How can you make a judgement like that when we’ve only heard 2 or 3 songs?”

“Look man, I’ve heard music outside of Wong’s coffee shop.  I don’t live in a funeral parlor, I do get—“

“You’re bitter…you don’t think the folks today have talent but your angry because our group never did anything”.

“No, I’m not bitter”, said Isaac, snatching his coffee cup, rising for a refill.  He gave his cup to Wong who filled it with hot coffee.

A voice came through the speakers.

“It’s the new R&B 101…R&B for San Francisco.  It’s our first day on the air and we’d like to show our new listeners our appreciation by—“

“They think they can buy us…that’s the problem”, said Isaac, pouring sugar into his coffee.

“Hey Wong”, said Issac, “What do you think of the new groups today…the rhythm and blues groups?  Do you think they sound the same?”

Wong leaned over due to his being deaf in one ear.

“I don’t listen too much”, said Wong.  “But I like Johnny Cash”

“Johnny Cash?”

“Yeah…that song about the prison was good”.

Isaac walked back to the table.

“Man…Wong is into that hillbilly music”

The traffic on the street was crowded.  The electric busses and trolley cars passed by as bike messengers weaved in an out of traffic like eels.  The sound of jackhammers pounding the ground could be heard, men with hardhats directed and diverted traffic as huge cranes rose in the background like big erect metallic penises.

“Man, the city is changing, said Ernie.  Remember when Market Street was classy.  Was a time when you dressed up when coming down here”.

“There’s so many homeless now”, said Isaac.

Most of the people were gone.  Isaac and Ernie remained drinking coffee.   The music didn’t stop.

“You know” Issac began, “All these groups sound the same.  Back in the day, you could tell a where a group was from.  Chicago groups had a certain sound, Detroit had a sound, Memphis had a sound.  Nowadays it sounds like they’ve all gone to the same singing school–like they’ve all attended R&B 101”

Ernie shook his head.

“I hear you brother”.

A voice came through the speaker once again.

“…It’s the new R&B 101…R&B for San Francisco”

Isaac shook his head and rose from his seat.

“Later on, Wong”

Isaac and Ernie walked down Market Street, disappearing into the Bart Station.  A week later they walked up Market, heading for Wong’s.  When they arrived, a sign greeted them.


Wong’s coffee shop out of Business.

Thanks you for many years support


“Aw man…what’ happened?” Isaac asked, looking through the glass.  The counters were torn from the ground and the walls appeared to have been bulldozed.

“Shit man, the place looks gutted” said Frankie, gazing at the building from top to bottom.

“Man, they ain’t too many places like Wong’s around no mo’…”

The two walked across the street, turned around and looked back at what once had been Wong’s coffee shop.

“Where we gonna go now?” Frankie asked.

“Hell if I know…” said Isaac.

The cranes in the city skyline appeared to have doubled since the day before.  Half-built high rises stood in the distance, dwarfing Wong’s, dwarfing everything and everybody on the street.

“Where we gonna listen to our music at?” Frankie asked, his eyes moist in the cold morning.

“I don’t know”, said Isaac.

They both walked up the street, heading somewhere else.



© 2005 Tony Robles






Wash (for the folks that went to George Washington High School)

Wash (for the folks that went to George Washington High School)

Did you go to

What year did
you graduate?

I remember homeroom
like an heirloom

I can’t wash
it out

Mr. Chandler told
me not to bend books
back to the spine because
“books have feelings”

I can’t wash the
memory of the fine
sisters in the halls who
were more woman than
girl while i was more boy
than man

and that Chinese girl,
was her name Linda?
She was fine and her
mere presence brushed
across my skin like a sultry
fog that slid
then left

i can’t wash the murals
off the walls of my mind
that showed George Washington
and ex presidents as heroes until
we got out in the world and learned

i can’t wash
wash out of my skin

and how the black
settled in my brown skin
to create something that
could never be washed out

i went to Wash
and you went to Wash
and i remember a young
Chinese cat who kicked
a tree branch

turned 360 degrees in
the air like a kung fu movie
and made the air pop

that won’t Wash
from my mind

and i remember taking
the bus, for a nickel
and seeing kids from Fillmore
on the 38 Geary

Kids that didn’t
remember me from
grade school, sitting
Alone in the bleachers
Contemplating splinters
That were to become poems

but i can’t
wash them from
my memory

can’t wash their
voices from my

can’t forget the way
they were when
they were young

and went
to Wash

(c) 2016 Tony Robles

Carabao Necklace

I’d never seen

A mound of

Carabao shit


I’d never

Had a carabao



My eyes had

Never been

Crusted by

Carabao sleep


But the carabaos

And their spirits

Trudge along

6th Street


The smells of

Filipino lives rising

Like fog from breath

Commiserating in

Pots of rice


I bought a

Carabao necklace

That fit nicely around

The stump of my neck


And I sat as its horn

Shape hung at a curved



And appeared out of

The mist and fog,

Seemingly from the

Pages of a fashion



She looked

At my carabao



That’s cheap,

She said


You can get

That anywhere

In the Philippines


And that carabao

Necklace got heavy,

Like a brick


I could barely

Move my neck


And I looked

At her necklace


I thought it was

A carabao horn but my

Eyes were playing

A trick


It was actually

A $500 shoe


(an expensive trick)


And through carabao

Crusted eyes I finally

See that mound of

Carabao shit that had

Eluded me



© 2017 Tony Robles

6th Street Skin

6th Street settles

On the skin


Years of built in

Built up

Torn down

Ruins renewing

Itself like a tire

Turning clockwise

With the seasons


And I lose my

Skin among

The stink of zen


Like an onion




On 6th street

In a car


The zen smell

Of detachment as

I look at my people

From inside the car

At a safe distance


The smell goes

Into the pores of

The poor


The smell of



Incense sticks


(and fish sauce tossed

In for good measure)


And somehow

It isn’t



The stink was

Too much

To bear


Get out of

My car! A voice



Buddah’s breath

A vague



And I get




The stink



On 6th




My skin



© 2017 Tony Robles

Once you get a taste

It happens when
you’re in the middle
of something

Like a meeting
or in line at the
bank or on the
toilet seat

Phone rings

You pick
it up

it’s a voice from
your past

a voice you
remember whose
timber was clear,
rising and falling
but mostly rising

Now the voice is
sluggish but still
manages to rise
to the occasion

It’s your uncle
or dad

And he says,
you know, i got
me a taste for
a cheese steak or
Fried oysters

They’d be real
good about

yeah, you say.
What’s that got to
do with me?

Don’t be chickenshit,
the voice answers

And you look at the
cellphone, you want
to flush it in the toilet or
stuff it into the ass of
an elephant

Then you think of the
cancer that he beat and
how the treatment deadened
the taste buds

and the voice says, I know,
you’re busy. It’s ok, don’t
worry about it, I don’t need

And you tell your uncle
or dad that you’ll pick up
those oysters or that
cheese steak

Just sit tight, you say

and there’s a pause
that lasts almost a

and the voice cuts
through, rising

it says:

you know,
i just got a taste


(c) 2017 Tony Robles

Thank You

Thank you to the black
men who taught me how
to laugh

Thank you to the black
women whose voices and
songs weave thru thick
weeds, leading me home

Thank you to those who
weave quilts to uncover
the truth

Thank you to
the ravens who
are always close by

Thank you to the
elders with one good
ear, one good eye, one
good hand because those
things are useful

Thank you to the
guy that said, hey
why don’t you leave
that kid alone?

Thank you to the
one who writes that
song in their mind
every day, too busy
to put it to paper

Thank you to the one
who signed their name
on the line that was
drawn and didn’t back

Thank you to the
mothers who had
to be fathers

Thank you to those
that took a shot
and missed

Thank you
to those whose eyes
never suffered a

Thank you to
the poets whose
poems are stored

Thank you to those
who sit in meditation
for they are in mediation
with the universe

Thank you for
those who keep

and those that

Thank you for
the grease stained
kettle on the stove that
screams when our lungs

Thank you to
those that didn’t
mistake kindness
for weakness

Thank you for
reading this

Thank you for
adding to

PS: Thank you to my mother for
continuing to show me what
grace is

(c) 2016 Tony Robles

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